Seems that daily we are reading blogs about the struggles of sobriety. How hard it can be. The effort it can take to stay the course. I am surely guilty of having the occasional pity party in my head. Oh woe is me!! Blah Blah Blah!! Today I was a bit smacked upside the head with some perspective.
My daughter is on her high school's competition cheer leading squad. This girl puts eleven months of the year of actual blood sweat and tears into this. She somehow still loves it. Her efforts to succeed at this sport are amazing. Now here comes the zinger... those little fuckers keep dropping her!!! She is a flier. So they throw my baby in the air and I hope, looking through my fingers, that they catch her. Sometimes they don't. So because of that, she has hit her head one too many times. Today we were told by a specialist, that she is DONE. Her little noggin can't take anymore. *sad mom face* She may not be done forever, but at least for this season. So all the effort, all the practice, and all the pushing through. The goal, taken away. I know my daughter is heartbroken.
So you ask, what is my point?
Sobriety is hard! It takes effort. But at the end of every day, it is up to us!! Nobody can take it away, nothing can happen to us and never is it beyond our control. We choose to be sober. We choose this for many different reason. But today, I affirm my choice to honor my daughter. First, because she deserves a sober mom!! But really, because I have a choice in the matter. My effort needs to count. Nothing can stop me and I need to remember that. My fate, unlike my daughters, isn't in the hands of someone else. And I thank God for that!!
Love you Miss!!
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You are such an inspiration Amiga, your baby girl is so lucky to have you on her squad!
ReplyDeleteThank you!! She is an awesome kid!
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